Monday, July 11, 2016

I am not dead, neither is Mac & Lucille

I found this unpublished post from last October while reevaluating this blog and my big little dreams.
It felt like finding an old journal entry.
It made me smile.

I know it has been like forever. But I had a reason. 
My son was born 2 months ago. After our experience last year I couldn't even let myself relax until 25 weeks into the pregnancy. Then I realized that this baby was actually happening so I should get ready.
I just had a lot going on blah blah...
Anyway moving on. I'm afraid of keeping this thing going, but the thing is...
I believe in myself.
Feels weird to say that out loud.
I don't know what the future brings. I go back to work in a matter of weeks so I'll have a full time job and full time baby! Wow. But I don't want to give up.
I have to give myself a break and accept that I won't make progress as quickly as I would like.
The last week before giving birth I never felt so inspired and such urgency to paint!
If I could just bottle that feeling!
I always feared that having a baby would take things from me that I couldn't get back. Now I know that is far from the truth. I have less time of course, but I have much more.

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