Sunday, July 17, 2016

Putting in the work

Back at it and it's just so hard to get into the meat of the work. I  have had to push through the crap and let myself make some truly awful things. You just hope that out of the mistakes you catch a glimpse.
A glimpse of something that might be good....or at least in the direction of good.
It has its own time line and I can't force it. Only live it and let it happen. Of course there are the things you have to keep reminding your yourself to do. 

Keep it simple
But not too simple
Be careful and measured
But make expressive strokes that give feeling
Don't do what's easy
But do what comes natural

After not being active in the blog world lately. I still find Austin Kleon saying the things that are hard to hear but have to be said.
Making art is about humility, not pride.
I'm feeling pretty humbled today.

Monday, July 11, 2016

I am not dead, neither is Mac & Lucille

I found this unpublished post from last October while reevaluating this blog and my big little dreams.
It felt like finding an old journal entry.
It made me smile.


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I know it has been like forever. But I had a reason. 
My son was born 2 months ago. After our experience last year I couldn't even let myself relax until 25 weeks into the pregnancy. Then I realized that this baby was actually happening so I should get ready.
I just had a lot going on blah blah...
Anyway moving on. I'm afraid of keeping this thing going, but the thing is...
I believe in myself.
Feels weird to say that out loud.
I don't know what the future brings. I go back to work in a matter of weeks so I'll have a full time job and full time baby! Wow. But I don't want to give up.
I have to give myself a break and accept that I won't make progress as quickly as I would like.
The last week before giving birth I never felt so inspired and such urgency to paint!
If I could just bottle that feeling!
I always feared that having a baby would take things from me that I couldn't get back. Now I know that is far from the truth. I have less time of course, but I have much more.